HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

yesterday was superb!i love my friends.i really mean it.this was my best birthday i ever had.friday's night was really super duper damn superb cool!totally cool!i went to Danga and did some lepak,yes i'm gonna miss it.then i went home,i thought everything is over.so i want to go to bed,i am so fucking tired that day!.then,norman called said that he wanted to lepak with me.so i just said,ok fine.i thought it will not be long.suddenly,the light turns off,and everyboday sang HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO ME!idk,i tollay blurr and just smile.this was the best,the best thing happend in my life,i swear i love them.i enjoyed the cake.norman talks too much that night.we are amaze by his mulut.non-stop talking!haha.you should have seen it.i invite fadil and arif too.it was fine,having them along.fadil as usual,silent all the way.long time no see you,fadil.shieqa failed that night,the earliest person sleep.followed by shikin.me naq and raja stay with norman.norman stay until 3am.

HENTAM

thank god finally the exam end today.of course tomorrow i still got paper,but i consider myself merdeka today.it is just EST Paper2,so a bit relax.i don't know what to say anymore about all the papers i done.goodbye to BIOLOGY,CHEMISTRY and my ADDMATHS.i think i fail.i know better.how can i pass if all the answers i just tembak,hentam ?a bit frustrated,but like people said,let bygone be bygone.haha.i promise myself after this,no last minute study.sounds poyo,but at least i'll try.SPM result 2008 inspired me.i need changes.i need to change,seriously.

i count the day.yes my birthday.it's seventeen!i plan to do some hang out,lepaklepak with my friend.no parties.hope it will be the best birthday i had.i am hoping into it.

my mum will be leaving JB tomorrow.she needs to see my dad.it's been a long time i didn't see my dad,i think.that's the best thing.she's leaving.hahaha.so we can do our lepak activity till midnight.
i just get my eclipse,yahoo!

examination drives me crazy

two papers i had today.
first it's physics and EST paper 1.
physics is like boleh lulus la (maybe)
and i do sucks in paper 2.don't ever and ever come and say to me
"yadha,physics senang."
i hate fatimah. everytime we had exams,she said
"aku tak study,aku teruk,aku menyesal study last minute"
and what so ever....at the end,her marks was like superb!
hate you fatimah.
EST:
i don't know what to say.there's no better words for EST,for me.
EST is easy if you're the man/girl live fulls with facts.EST is all about facts.
well,since i hate facts,i sucks in EST.
i am like,merapu,meleweh mengarut.bila jawab tadi.
uh.'write a report about the affects of smoking'.
kau tulis la pasal smoking dengan berdasarkan fakta-fakta yg benar.
damnit.
habis paper,naqiyah,shieqa and myself duduk belakang kelas ICT,mencarut,membebel yg tak pasti pasal apa,lekek-lekek dekat belakang.frustrated i think.

balik rumah,perut aku sakit berdekah-dekah dekat sekolah tadi.
all i need rite now is sleep.tomorrow is BIOLOGY and ICT.i still belum jenguk-jenguk buku.

WHATEVER!i need shopping,ibu.

again.

yesterday was nothing actually.
things happened like usual.tuition,makan,minum,mandi.all the same.
until the evening came,i felt something.i don't know how to describe it.the feeling is like;sad,happy,dissapointed.
i saw HIM,yesterday.i felt happy,but at the same time,i felt sad.happy because it's been a long time i didn't see him.sad because it'll never be the same.i mean,what we did before this.he changed a lot.maybe he just like that.he saw me too.he say no words to me.that's makes me dissapointed.well at least HI is enough.i don't know what to do.again,i can't sleep.i just want to scream and say "hey,you fool!don't ever and ever come to my mind!"
i wait in the cold,windy night.wait if he call.
the last night he leave a missed call.idk what that means.but
again,i'm wrong.

almost lover song by a fine frenzy just suits me.

"Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind.Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

No

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

friends are everything

friends are everything.
i need them.yes,i do need them.
FULLSTOP.

this one i miss the most.2007.

NO TITTLE

as usual,so many things happened this week.

first,exam.
i just need more time to study.Man,i hate last minute study.
trust me.it is worst.i better prepare myself earlier.last minute study makes my head spinning,at the end,nothing you can write on your paper.i totally blanked!
i just hope i'm doing well on physics.that's the only hope. :)

when i'm alone,i felt something came to me.
i don't know what it is,but it makes me cry sometimes.especially when i suddenly woke up in the early morning.maybe i felt lonely,alone,empty.the moment it comes,all the memory came and it kills me.i can't breathe,only the tears came out.
it's useless to say something that never happen.
well,maybe i miss him.that's the thing.I hate it.
these days,norman had keep me some company.he texts me.calls.i feel better.well,at least, my brain will not think about the same thing.him,i mean.so we did some lepak.norman still doesn't change since i knew him.funny, a bit perasan,blurrblurr.i makes me feel better.thanked him.

moving on.........