lain pulak yg jadi

lain yg diharap,lain yg jadi.yes i know this day will come.at last people will know the truth.seriously,it's hard keeping other people secrets.damn hard.especially,it will hurt someone.and i am so sorry to Nurul Anis Safura,for not telling you the truth.i'm just hear what he says,and i keep it.TRUST me,there's a reason why he did that to you.he loves you,i know.deep inside his heart,he loves you.but all i can say,people can say anything they want.trust it or not,up to us.he can say anything,but if he doesn't show and prove it to you,i'll say don't trust.

Safura,i have no intend to hurt you.all i want to see, a happy smile from your face.i am happy if you are happy with him.i have NO FEELINGS with him.thank you for still believe in me.people try to make things worst.and i really really bag you,don't trust others.hear the true story from me.and then judge me.it's up to you whether you want to trust me or not.

thanks again for still believe in me.i appreciate it.i am hoping for the best for you.there's always a reason why people did somethingto us,Safura.i love you.FULLSTOP

you're not alone

yeah,you're not that alone,yadha.
you still have your family your friends
sometimes i do miss him,maybe just maybe,i don't miss him,i just miss the moment.
maybe.i am not sure with this feeling.
this feeling will disappear,i know.but it takes time.that's the matter.

it's hard when you help people,and things turned to the other way.
i just help people,and i don't like him.seriously.

PELAJAR KLUSTER???

hari yg sangat meletihkan,ganti puasa wehh!you deserve it cik yadha.2 tahun dah tak ganti.
walaupun puasa,ini langsung tidak membataskan aktiviti berbual,mengata dan bergosip di dalam kelas.tema dalam kelas hari ini ialah 'penganjingan'.

hari bermula seperti biasa,cikgu masuk kelas,mengajar dan belajar.gelak-gelak,berbual,tidur kecuali makan (untuk hari ini).

PNP sebelum rehat semuanya okay kecuali semasa BI.Pn Bibie seprti biasa menjengkelkan kami semua.potpetpotpetpotpet even kelas sudah tamat.???.maaf Pn.Bibie(bukan nama sebenar) para pelajar tidak gemar subjek BI dewasa ini.you should do something about it.

rehat seperti biasa,murid-murid makan kecuali saya.naik rehat,subjek sejarah.subjek kesukaan Sika kerana dia senang dgn Pn.Flo Rida(bukan nama sebenar).kelas sejarah bersama Pn.Flo Rida memang ditunggu-tunggu.bukan kerana fakta yg akan diceritakan,sebaliknya cerita kisah hidup Pn.Flo Rida yg dibincangkan.sedikit sebanyak beliau pasti akan bercerita sehinggalah masa PNP untuk sejarah tamat.???.belajar sejarah tingkatan 5 ke sejarah Pn.Flo Rida???

sewaktu masa sejarah,masa yg diberikan Pn.Flo Rida diisi dgn melakukan survey AFUNDI KELUAR untuk cikgu cikgu oleh cekya dan sika.(tak guna banggang!).top2 yg diundi keluar dari kelas 5TM ialah;
1.PN.BIBIE
2.PN.WEDA

seterusnya,

kelas Biology bersama Pn.SZ(bukan nama sebenar) amat disukai lebih-lebih lagi topik yg diajar ialah tajuk REPRODUCTION.semua pelajar aktif.

Bahasa Melayu.Bahasa Melayu merupakan subjek yg boleh dikira lemah di dalam kelas 5TM.meskipun pelajar berbicara hampir 80% menggunakan bahasa ini,tetapi malangnya cikgu yg mengajar subjek ini pasti sakit jiwa.Pn.Weda(bukan nama sebenar) meminta pelajar-pelajar menghantar karangannya dengan terpekik-pekik.malangnya,pekik kuat macamna pun 5TM belum tentu nk hantar.hampir 90% pelajar tidak melakukan kerjanya.saya TIDAK PERNAH MEMPUNYAI BUKU KARANGAN dari awal tahun.maaf PN.Weda anda adalah TOP2 AFUNDI KELUAR minggu ini.para pelajar (saya la) menganjing setiap kali Pn.Weda berbicara.
kami rindu PN.MAIMON.kembalilah....

kelas hikmah paling best,bersama Pn.Aerma (mami kegemaran Sai).pelajar dibenarkan melakukan aktiviti yg anda suka.WOHOOOOOOOO!!saya dan cekya cuba menyelesaikan tugasan karangan Pn.Weda.berdekah-dekah dibuatnya apabila cekya meminta idea dari saya dan sika.Pn.Weda pasti menangis membaca karangan cekya kerana cekya....... :)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

saya berbuka nasi berlauk telur sambal besertakan tempe goreng.disajikan bersama air milo panas dan bandung cincau.FUHHHHHHHHH.

life must go on

life must go on no matter what.

ahaaa,i'm tired with school life.
i'm done with my band,and counting the days to retire.selepas berhempas pulas selama 5 tahun.akhirnya bandcomp 2009 yg lalu,SIGS tumpas lagi kepada STF.yea,seriously they deserve it.OMG they superb,all perfect,i think.but we all did our best.non-stop crying,thinking this is the last year handling the band with all the form 5.ENOUGH.so to all band girls work harder next time and beat THEM.REVENGE OF THE FALLEN.
RAIN OR SHINE THE BAND STILL STANDS.

i just want to spend my days with watching movies.Transformers one of them.27/6/2009 i went to Jusco Tebrau with pura to watch transformers.OMG,all sold.fed-up.we went with bard and his friend gjie.i'm hungry so i went to breadtalk.to make it short,end up i fight with gjie.shit i'm kinda embrassed with the situation.i don't know him and fight with him.daaaaaa,

bard nampak pendek kan???hahahahahahahahaha

28/6/2009
CHEERLEADERS COMPETITION 2009
congratulations to all the winners especially VIXEN.noorashikin ibrahim,you deserve it okaih?sadly,the 2nd runner up,PUPPETS doesn't deserve it at all.i hate PUPPETS.at least,IGNITE or FB.to FANTABULOUS girls,keep it up and don't give up.

TODAY
holiday.again?boring,i need to get out from this house.urgghhhh.my pathetic brother did his thing again.i hate him.

hope for the best.

Johore State Band Competition is back!!!
Date: 23/6/2009
Day: Tuesday
Venue: Stadium Perbadanan Pasir Gudang

We,SIGS band is doing our best to impressed our seniors,teachers and our school.i really really hope that we will win AGAIN this year.AMIN

skipped class this week.A busy week i had.practice,practice and practice.i am tired,and sleep early.wohooo.honestly five years with this band,i'm still scared to perform our competition.
whatever it is,i am hoping the best.

"RAIN OR SHINE THE BAND STILL STAND!!!!"

sudah....

dah lama tak update,yes i know.like usual,i'm superb busy with my school stuffs and haven't touch my laptop agak lama juga.plus i don't have time to write anything.feel jealous when clicking my friend's blog.yeah,guekk ada blog tapi tak update,hampeh wokk.

okay today i'm staying at my gran's house.sudah lama tak kesini,and miss my aunts uncle granny,grandpa.yo,my nenek's teh susu superb bai.i miss it.yeah,today i am going to do addmath assignment.idk,what is the purpose of doing that,enough with the exercises,i hate addmath.so sorry to Pn.Azalina,i hate calculations.for your informations,i NEVER pass my addmath.stupid isn't it??

holiday means nothing to me.i just spend my time with tv since i haven't touch the remote quite a long time.and i love wahtching DVD'S.dude,i miss my frens.5 TMERS.

i don't want to talk about him anymore.pathetic me.hey,i miss JOE! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

yesterday was superb!i love my friends.i really mean it.this was my best birthday i ever had.friday's night was really super duper damn superb cool!totally cool!i went to Danga and did some lepak,yes i'm gonna miss it.then i went home,i thought everything is over.so i want to go to bed,i am so fucking tired that day!.then,norman called said that he wanted to lepak with me.so i just said,ok fine.i thought it will not be long.suddenly,the light turns off,and everyboday sang HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO ME!idk,i tollay blurr and just smile.this was the best,the best thing happend in my life,i swear i love them.i enjoyed the cake.norman talks too much that night.we are amaze by his mulut.non-stop talking!haha.you should have seen it.i invite fadil and arif too.it was fine,having them along.fadil as usual,silent all the way.long time no see you,fadil.shieqa failed that night,the earliest person sleep.followed by shikin.me naq and raja stay with norman.norman stay until 3am.

HENTAM

thank god finally the exam end today.of course tomorrow i still got paper,but i consider myself merdeka today.it is just EST Paper2,so a bit relax.i don't know what to say anymore about all the papers i done.goodbye to BIOLOGY,CHEMISTRY and my ADDMATHS.i think i fail.i know better.how can i pass if all the answers i just tembak,hentam ?a bit frustrated,but like people said,let bygone be bygone.haha.i promise myself after this,no last minute study.sounds poyo,but at least i'll try.SPM result 2008 inspired me.i need changes.i need to change,seriously.

i count the day.yes my birthday.it's seventeen!i plan to do some hang out,lepaklepak with my friend.no parties.hope it will be the best birthday i had.i am hoping into it.

my mum will be leaving JB tomorrow.she needs to see my dad.it's been a long time i didn't see my dad,i think.that's the best thing.she's leaving.hahaha.so we can do our lepak activity till midnight.
i just get my eclipse,yahoo!

examination drives me crazy

two papers i had today.
first it's physics and EST paper 1.
physics is like boleh lulus la (maybe)
and i do sucks in paper 2.don't ever and ever come and say to me
"yadha,physics senang."
i hate fatimah. everytime we had exams,she said
"aku tak study,aku teruk,aku menyesal study last minute"
and what so ever....at the end,her marks was like superb!
hate you fatimah.
EST:
i don't know what to say.there's no better words for EST,for me.
EST is easy if you're the man/girl live fulls with facts.EST is all about facts.
well,since i hate facts,i sucks in EST.
i am like,merapu,meleweh mengarut.bila jawab tadi.
uh.'write a report about the affects of smoking'.
kau tulis la pasal smoking dengan berdasarkan fakta-fakta yg benar.
damnit.
habis paper,naqiyah,shieqa and myself duduk belakang kelas ICT,mencarut,membebel yg tak pasti pasal apa,lekek-lekek dekat belakang.frustrated i think.

balik rumah,perut aku sakit berdekah-dekah dekat sekolah tadi.
all i need rite now is sleep.tomorrow is BIOLOGY and ICT.i still belum jenguk-jenguk buku.

WHATEVER!i need shopping,ibu.

again.

yesterday was nothing actually.
things happened like usual.tuition,makan,minum,mandi.all the same.
until the evening came,i felt something.i don't know how to describe it.the feeling is like;sad,happy,dissapointed.
i saw HIM,yesterday.i felt happy,but at the same time,i felt sad.happy because it's been a long time i didn't see him.sad because it'll never be the same.i mean,what we did before this.he changed a lot.maybe he just like that.he saw me too.he say no words to me.that's makes me dissapointed.well at least HI is enough.i don't know what to do.again,i can't sleep.i just want to scream and say "hey,you fool!don't ever and ever come to my mind!"
i wait in the cold,windy night.wait if he call.
the last night he leave a missed call.idk what that means.but
again,i'm wrong.

almost lover song by a fine frenzy just suits me.

"Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind.Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

No

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

friends are everything

friends are everything.
i need them.yes,i do need them.
FULLSTOP.

this one i miss the most.2007.

NO TITTLE

as usual,so many things happened this week.

first,exam.
i just need more time to study.Man,i hate last minute study.
trust me.it is worst.i better prepare myself earlier.last minute study makes my head spinning,at the end,nothing you can write on your paper.i totally blanked!
i just hope i'm doing well on physics.that's the only hope. :)

when i'm alone,i felt something came to me.
i don't know what it is,but it makes me cry sometimes.especially when i suddenly woke up in the early morning.maybe i felt lonely,alone,empty.the moment it comes,all the memory came and it kills me.i can't breathe,only the tears came out.
it's useless to say something that never happen.
well,maybe i miss him.that's the thing.I hate it.
these days,norman had keep me some company.he texts me.calls.i feel better.well,at least, my brain will not think about the same thing.him,i mean.so we did some lepak.norman still doesn't change since i knew him.funny, a bit perasan,blurrblurr.i makes me feel better.thanked him.

moving on.........

oh,busy busy.

today,is a very busy day.
full of activities.

busy,busy,busy,busy
minah busy.

hungry.i'm hungry!

what a day

oh.oh.oh.oh.oh
today i totaly lost and blanked.
hari yg kurang bernasib baik untuk cikyadha.ah.
mulut saya tidak dapat berfungsi dengan baik.mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik tu kut.
uh.sakit gila!
masa aktiviti PJ konon-konon nak main sofbol.
bukan bola yg aku pukul,aku pukul mulut aku sendiri.peh.
sakit gila gila gila punya gila.!@@$#^%&&!!!

duduk kelas,dengan mulut yg sakit,aku senyap shja.
tengok budak-budak popetpopet tak hentihenti buat aku fed-up.hahahaha
jeles sebab aku pulak yg tak dapat bercakap.la pulak dah.

balik online kejap.clickclick sana sini jumpa budak ni.
I LIKE HER!
I like her.how about you?she's cute i think.yesyes.

psssstttt,i gained some kilos.OH MY GOD!
seluar jeans aku dah tak boleh masuk lagi.grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

8.30 P.M.jalan-jalan dengan ibu.
boring jugak,buti think ibu enjoy jugak.
kesian jugak la tengok dia terperap aja di rumah.
pergi la Danga Bay tu.
ahah.boleh la.

10;33P.M.i wait for norman.
he said he wanted to to give me something.chocolate.
yeay!!last night he came to my house and we did some chitchat.
a bit shocked.suddenly he called me and said 'cikyadhanorman dekat luar rumah,keluar la'
hahaha.i thought it was Arip who called me.
whatever pun i enjoyed jugak chitchat sama itu bangsat.hahaha
i can't denied one thing.lepak-lepak macam tu buat aku terfikir pasal Fadil.
dah lama tak lepak macam tu sama dia.dulu selalu jugak dia dtg rumah.
things changed.i miss him jugak la.(whatever la cikyadha oi)

suddenly:ayah oh ayah,i need a bike!!
buat apa aku ambil lesen motor??
this one cute tak,readers?

awesome!i need this.NO.i WANT this!!!

i think i need to complete my karangan.and sambil tu tunggu cik norman
okaih,goodnite bloggers and readers!

adios.

popetpopetpopet

i think i forget to mention about our SPORTS DAY. yeah,21Feb2009 yg lalu.
know what,i would say this is my last and my most boring sports day i ever had.IDK.
please don't ask me about my band perfomance.i hate it.most people like it,i don't understand.i got many comments from my friends,teachers.well i just smile.that's all.some say they like it,well the others said boleh la.wah.entah la
oh pictures!since i got no camera,i'll wait for my friends punya belas kasihan untuk bagi gambar.so just wait.and i asked from Azizan Kaminica for the pics too. just wait.

think about 'panas'.i got sunburn. i can't see my face.it's like i've been cursed you know.hahaha.,tak pernak cek rasa panah macam ni.pikir punya pikir,i wonder macam mana la panas neraka tu hek??ya allah.tepuk dada tanya iman bak kata ustaz Ali :)

i've to struggle a lot to complete all my homeworks.hah.padan muka kau cekyadha.procastination is the way of life la katakan.aduh.last-last aku yg nangis nk siapkan hmwrk.peh,tangan ni rasa mcm nak tertanggal pun ada.sekolah pun berjalan seperti biasa after sukan ni.so,menataplah muka cecekgu sekalian.exam pun next week.tak tau la sempat tak nak belajar. :)

next;i need money.and i think i need a handphone from my dad.dapat ke??tepuk dada tanya,dada ayah kut.

i think that's all from now.
sorry no pics for now.nothing special untuk di share kan.

pusingpusing

sangat tertarik membaca blog fatimah,i think you all should take your time and read her blog.it's interesting.hahaha.damn,it's true.my classmates.they all are crazy.superdamncrazy.
i think 5TM stands for 5TerlaluMalas,5TerlaluMemekak,5TidakMendengar and many more!
oh kebisingan tahap melampau dan kadang kala gegendang telinga nak pecah pun ada.
aku mula rasa menyesal dan give up jadi assistant monitor kelas 5TM.ahaha.penat gila babi jadi assistant monitor nih wey.

malas untuk menelaah,aku clickclick blogblog yg ada and found something interesting.
i decide to buy something for my mum.i hope she will like it.

is it okay?i hope she will like it.

i think you all should take your time (again) and view all these blog

-http://like--seriously.blogspot.com
-http://thelifeoftimah.blogspot.com
-http://herpreciouswords.blogspot.com
and many more!

i think that's all for now.i got something to do.hehehehe.zzzzzzzz.hahaha
i am tired.buku karangan tak hantar lagi and i think Pn.Maimon akan popetpopetpopet early in the morning.uh.procastinate sekali lagi.aduh!

huaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

i miss my blog.sumpah,i don't know how to describe how busy i am.
hurm.there's so many things happened.things changed.a lot.i mean it.
friends,family,school,band and especially him,i mean fadil.

friends: i am getting closer to naqiah,sheken and itu makcik gila,shafiqah.
they are crazy.super crazy!

family: my father now got something to do with his project at KL.Plus,my brother Ulin is no longer stay with us.he is now an independent boy i guess.sometimes i think my house is no longer a safe place to stay.house a bit lonely.i miss my family.
school: oh my god.i don't believe that i'll be taking the SPM sooner.ohohoh.i need more time to prepare.i procastinate all the way.i ignore my homeworks.i need to change.but i don't know how to start.uh.
SIGS band: no comment.we try our best to satisfy these people.it's not easy as ABC.we need time.the time!this year is the most tough year i had.i thought form 5,i'll be relax a bit.it proo me wrong.i miss the seniors.
him: time change everything.the last december i had was the most wonderful holiday.i am getting close to him.friends told me not to have the feeling towards him.but i don't know why,it's so hard to forget him.and i wonder why i like this boy so much.he got nothing even the future.please don't tell me why macamana cek yadha boleh sangkut dgn ini budak.i try not to call him.i try my best.then i decide to give myHAPPY to my friends.let them use so that tangan cek tak gatalgatal nak telepon dia.please fadil,if you don't like me,don't give me hope.i am not sure.if he don't like me,why he says something that i can say he likes me.January,i struggle a lot.only GOD knows.but then,the feeling dissappear a bit.a bit.a bit.yes i miss him.i do miss him.everything i do seems wrong.sounds poyo.but this is what i feel.i call him yesterday.things changed like i said.i gave up.so,move on.that is the only thing i can do.yes,iam moving on...
gone with the wind,i guess

but it's okay as long as i have my friend and my family i still can survive! :) that's the good thing.
yes i'll be missing him.but its alright.cekyadha,focus on your exam next week.i love my job as student.hahaha :)

before i forget,i cut my hair.i like it.sometimes.sorry cekyah.but anyway thanks naqiya for the hair.here are some pics with naqiyah

with sheken

that's all for now. :)